Rage
Ugh, I've been kinda inactive lately (I'm sorry) I'm just really busy with school, I didn't do anything up and it's starting to show in my grades.
Besides that there's also some trouble with my boyfriend... or well it's more that he did something stupid and I just don't know if I should be angry or just let it go. I mean I can't stay angry forever, but the fact is that I trusted him and he lied to me for like 2 months.
I don't even know anymore.
Sometimes I just want to take a break from everything.
I'm considering to take a break. Maybe just for a couple of days no contact with my bf, so I can get some rest, and so I can make up my mind.
Also I'm really, really annoyed by one of his friends, or well, they used to be friends. That guy's just so fucking annoying. He's constantly hanging around me, telling me how "cute" and "pretty" I am. And how I shouldn't be insecure. First it just seemed like he was nice and stuff... but lately I'm trying to get rid of him. And nothing works....
Even when I swear at him and tell him to fuck off, he just comes back the next day, asking me why I was angry.
The worst thing is, because of his stalkerish behaviour, my boyfriend almost broke up with me. (this was because of something the boy did, I could kill him for it 
)
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But from now on, I will spent more time writing fanfiction, working on yuuya 
and of course rp-ing!
I should really just focus on deviantart.
So hopefully I'll be able to upload some fics the next few weeks.
I'm really sorry about the rage, I just had to get some things off my mind.
Saranghaeyo~
Everything sucks...
since she's not at home 
Stuff
ABC about Me
A - AVAILABILITY: taken I guess...
B - BIRTHDAY: April 1st
C - CRUSHING ON: obviously my boyfriend //rolls
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Water
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO:
and my bf of courseF - FAVORITE SONG: Lucifer
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Worms.
H - HOMETOWN: Some place in the Netherlands called 'Haarlem'
I - IN LOVE WITH: again... my boyfriend obv
K - KILLED SOMEONE: No, eventhough I'd love to kill so people-- I mean nope...
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Going to Berlin with school (if that counts)
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Vanilla
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2 little sisters and 1 little brother
O - ONE WISH: I don't know, maybe-- nah just maybe less problems with my mom
P- PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: My grandmother
R - REASON TO SMILE: schadenfreu-- I mean idk anything, I can laugh about a lot of stuff, especially when I'm around
S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: Delusion Forest
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6:00
U - UNDERWEAR: White and blue
V - VEGETABLE: Potatoes
W - WORST HABIT: I'm stubborn and annoying
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Dental
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Leo ('cause my bf is a leo)
RANDOM QUESTIONS!!!
Spell your name without vowels: Jwl or Bll (depends on if you use my new dA name of the one I used on my old account)
Least favorite colors?: I think yellow and orange
What are you listening to?: Ayano's happiness theory
What is your favorite class in school?: Actually none, since it's school, but if I have to choose I guess history
Who is your best friend:
When do you start back at school/college?: If all goes well, somewhere around 2015 I'll be able to go to uni
Are you outgoing?: Depends on the people around me
Favorite pair of shoes?: Sneakers ftw
Can you dance?:
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: Never tried it-- hmmm now I kinda want to try it-- but don't really know why you'd do something like that
Can you whistle?: No.
Cross your eyes?: Kinda
Walk with your toes curled?: Of course
THE DO'S
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Why not?
Do you believe in miracles?: Oh hell yeah
Do you believe in magic?: Actually I do
Love at first sight?: Awww yissss
Do you believe in Santa? Nope
Do you know how to swim?: Of course I was forced to get at least swim diploma A and B (Although I held on to C)
Do you like roller coasters? Hell yeah
Have you ever been on a plane?:No
Have you ever asked someone out?: Sort of-- not really
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: No, not really--
What is the temperature outside?: It's okay
What radio station do you listen to?: No radio
What was the last thing you bought?: Bobby Pins
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: News
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: My bf //paps
CRYING SECTION
Ever really cried your heart out?: YES
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yeah, like several times
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yes
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yess
Do you cry when you get an injury?: No not really, only once or something, when I was younger
Do certain songs make you cry?: Blue tomorrow ftw
Are you a happy person?: Nah, only when I'm with my bf or
What is your current hair color?: Dark blonde (I swear, one day it'll be brown)
CURRENTLY WEARING?
What shirt are you wearing?: Pyjama
Shoes?: Barefoot
Necklaces? None
Bracelets: my SJ and BIG BANG bracelets
Favorite eye color: Dark brown ones //papming
Short or long hair: Long (eventhough middle is best)
Height: 5'58" (that's around 170 cm-- I'm way too long-- GOD WHY?!)
HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: No.
Mooned someone. Nope.
Laughed so hard you cried: Every time I was with
eueCried in school: Yes.
Wanted to be a model: Never
Done something stupid you laugh at?: yeah of course
Been on drugs: No.
Gone skinny dipping?: No.
THIS OR THAT:
Pepsi or Coke: Neither
Single or Group Dates: Single (group dates suckkkk, I mean everyone is in each others way and then everything'll be awkward and-- yeah just keep it to single dates)
Strawberries or Blueberries?: Strawberries
Meat or Veggies: Meat
TV or Movie: Movie
Guitar or Drums: Guitar
Adidas or Nike: Nike I guess
Chinese or Mexican: Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn Flakes
Name one random thing about yourself: I'm an egocentric bitch..
My absence
So yeah, I haven't been on in a while. I'm really sorry for that!
The first week I could've done something about, but I was just.. I had to spent all my time with my boyfriend It's a really bad excuse, but after that my computer decided to fuck me over and over and just wouldn't function.
After that week, I really needed dA, I had to read fics and stuff, but then I had a fight with my mom.. I'll give the short version:
I came home after I had spent the day at my boyfriend's house and suddenly she was being all like you've changed since you have him in your live and stuff. I decided to ignore it, she was probably drunk :/
But then she came in to my room really mad, since I didn't help my sister with the computer, even though I already told her, it was really easy to fix and I had told her exactly what to do.
Then my mom kicked me out of the house, I informed houteian and my boyfriend, and me and my boyfriend spent two hours at the.. playground behind my house. When I came back my mom was really angry and stuff, so I was like no can't talk to you right now, 'cause you'll probably hurt me. So I went to my room.
When I was in my room I called my grandparents to ask what I should do. Then my mom and little sisters and brother came into my room, my mom hit me twice and then they all were hitting me and stuff to get my phone. (by that time I had already packed my bag) I went outside when my mom wasn't looking and went to my grandparents, where I spent the whole week.
But the internet over there is really slow, and the computer is from the year 0, so I wasn't able to use dA that week too.
So sorry it's been so long. Now is also the first time I'm able to work on my fics and commishes again.
Saranghaeyo~