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Ugh, I've been kinda inactive lately (I'm sorry) I'm just really busy with school, I didn't do anything up and it's starting to show in my grades. Besides that there's also some trouble with my boyfriend... or well it's more that he did something stupid and I just don't know if I should be angry or just let it go.  I mean I can't stay angry forever, but the fact is that I trusted him and he lied to me for like 2 months. I don't even know anymore. Sometimes I just want to take a break from everything. I'm considering to take a break. Maybe just for a couple of days no contact with my bf, so I can get some rest, and so I can make up my mind.

Ugh, I feel so bad atm.. everything I do all day long is sobbing and overthinking. Because I had another fight with my mother , because she's a fucking rasicst and because she really seems to hate me, and after that fight I've decided to live with my dad... I considerd to go live with her again, but after this I just.. I don't even know,, I just want to slap her in her face. Stupid b*tch. I mean, she told me she didn't like my boyfriend since he doesn't talk that much, but whenever my little sister has a white boyfriend that's quiet, there's no problem. She actually once told me if I got into a relationship with a foreigner, she'd make me b

So yeah, again it's been quite a while since I was really active on dA... I'm really sorry for my absence (although probably no one really noticed) And again some stuff went wrong between me and my mom and I just don't now what to do... I could go and life somewhere else (somewhere not to far away, so I can still attend this school and stay close to my bf and bff) or should I stay with my mom and just bear with this situation till I'm 18 and get the fuck away so I can study (and life on my own, working my but of and stuff-- I mean, yeah just living alone - or with someone idk-) I really don't know what to do... So after the complaining.. n